And I knew it because he told me I had a vision of myself cold fog, left lonesome wishing, thinking of him in the span of a flinch sat across from him He hung a token of my affection for him upside down, dead, dried in his kitchen a trophy it hurt to see why was I here? my heart shouldn't be here After he told me I stood in the rain, in the frigid wind trying to find a way home I thought I saw him pass I thought he saw me I thought he felt satisfied deep breaths were all I could do my heart slid down my ribs my stomach leapt I knew before I knew why did I let myself trust it? because I wanted it to be true I knew it wasn't
it was that sudden flicker of something in my chest the warmth rushing to my cheeks and I was frightened again it must have been that smile he showed me the time he placed aside for me my starving heart mistook his gesture of warmth for something more and I'm so cold and I know better and I am afraid already I've felt myself unravelling my heart seems so angry I feel it every day wanting to escape my chest wanting me to find him wanting me to be with him but I know better every time I've fallen I found myself alone on the floor staring at the ceiling with stale tears in my eyes asking misery if it loves me after everyone I had loved didn't choose me as I watched each of their warm expressions fade misery found me but being with misery doesn't feel good misery tells me I'm no good for anyone misery tells me I have nothing to offer anyone misery tells me I'm better off alone misery tells me to stay miserable I smile and I listen, as he tells me of who he's chosen I laugh and I
Loving reflected in the heat by Niji-no-Amai, literature
Literature
Loving reflected in the heat
Loving reflected in the heat when they said, "loving is a bloodsport" I knew I was only on a losing streak because I refused to claim victims instead broke, and watched my heart leak and maybe I'd been less than graceful spit and spiteful at each mistake still, I took every blow leaned into each fall swallowed myself in heartache and I know I'm not perfect when With unsteady hands I don't feel like standing on my own two feet, but I wanted to swim in their oceans pass the time sitting in their shallows lay basking in their heat did I drink too heavily from you, love when I thought the morning was too bright did I take from you what was heaven, love what was left was a trip, a fall from height what I found on the ground was warm, too fear and loathing, hot black fuel I'm not proud of who I was then
Gold and Lead are nothing by Niji-no-Amai, literature
Literature
Gold and Lead are nothing
Gold and Lead are nothing when you find yourself seeing so much gold in someone and all they seem to see in you is lead heart after passing heart it's difficult not to see it, too precious, poison, lonely because I thought your smile was soft and bright something so precious, heat rising in my face in your company, I wished that warmth for you to your subtle shadows and your storms I felt red but reflected in your eyes I saw myself sick and blue precious, poison, lonely I can be made to look so foolish providing them shelter, trying to colour their walls waiting for the day they'll paint over me because the longer I'm here I'm poison don't breathe wrong, don't lead me on if it hurt, oh well precious, poison, lonely I'm always here feeling how I shouldn't thinking that I shouldn't I make friends with my love but an enemy of my heart trying so hard not to try so hard trying not to see the pattern but if you need me I'm here I'm always here precious, poison, lonely
And I knew it because he told me I had a vision of myself cold fog, left lonesome wishing, thinking of him in the span of a flinch sat across from him He hung a token of my affection for him upside down, dead, dried in his kitchen a trophy it hurt to see why was I here? my heart shouldn't be here After he told me I stood in the rain, in the frigid wind trying to find a way home I thought I saw him pass I thought he saw me I thought he felt satisfied deep breaths were all I could do my heart slid down my ribs my stomach leapt I knew before I knew why did I let myself trust it? because I wanted it to be true I knew it wasn't
it was that sudden flicker of something in my chest the warmth rushing to my cheeks and I was frightened again it must have been that smile he showed me the time he placed aside for me my starving heart mistook his gesture of warmth for something more and I'm so cold and I know better and I am afraid already I've felt myself unravelling my heart seems so angry I feel it every day wanting to escape my chest wanting me to find him wanting me to be with him but I know better every time I've fallen I found myself alone on the floor staring at the ceiling with stale tears in my eyes asking misery if it loves me after everyone I had loved didn't choose me as I watched each of their warm expressions fade misery found me but being with misery doesn't feel good misery tells me I'm no good for anyone misery tells me I have nothing to offer anyone misery tells me I'm better off alone misery tells me to stay miserable I smile and I listen, as he tells me of who he's chosen I laugh and I
Loving reflected in the heat by Niji-no-Amai, literature
Literature
Loving reflected in the heat
Loving reflected in the heat when they said, "loving is a bloodsport" I knew I was only on a losing streak because I refused to claim victims instead broke, and watched my heart leak and maybe I'd been less than graceful spit and spiteful at each mistake still, I took every blow leaned into each fall swallowed myself in heartache and I know I'm not perfect when With unsteady hands I don't feel like standing on my own two feet, but I wanted to swim in their oceans pass the time sitting in their shallows lay basking in their heat did I drink too heavily from you, love when I thought the morning was too bright did I take from you what was heaven, love what was left was a trip, a fall from height what I found on the ground was warm, too fear and loathing, hot black fuel I'm not proud of who I was then
Gold and Lead are nothing by Niji-no-Amai, literature
Literature
Gold and Lead are nothing
Gold and Lead are nothing when you find yourself seeing so much gold in someone and all they seem to see in you is lead heart after passing heart it's difficult not to see it, too precious, poison, lonely because I thought your smile was soft and bright something so precious, heat rising in my face in your company, I wished that warmth for you to your subtle shadows and your storms I felt red but reflected in your eyes I saw myself sick and blue precious, poison, lonely I can be made to look so foolish providing them shelter, trying to colour their walls waiting for the day they'll paint over me because the longer I'm here I'm poison don't breathe wrong, don't lead me on if it hurt, oh well precious, poison, lonely I'm always here feeling how I shouldn't thinking that I shouldn't I make friends with my love but an enemy of my heart trying so hard not to try so hard trying not to see the pattern but if you need me I'm here I'm always here precious, poison, lonely
Well, hello there faithful followers! I'm more than a little surprised to see you still exist. Either you guys rather liked the angsty ramblings of my younger days, or more than likely you've forgotten all about me.
Well I'm back! That's right! I've returned to deviant with a whole new product! I'm excited to say I've picked up a few new hobbies on my time away and I'm eager to share! I've recently pick up my own camera and I've been nabbing some interesting little photos here and there as I steadily learn more about how exactly this thingamabob works!
I figure I should also stay true to what I opened this deviant account for also...so I fi
1. Open Music Player, choose the Shuffle Play.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
1) IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY", YOU SAY?
"Mouthwash..." --Kate Nash
Ah, sick! Brush your teeth Haru!
2) WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
"Sleep sweet." --Home Video
I'm narcoleptic! OR! I'm a dreamer! HAH! Get it? :D
3) WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
"Scummy..?" --Artic Monkeys
...yeah... o_o
4) HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
"Parkdale!" --Metric
Oh, rad! I'm okay with this. :3
5) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
"Adore Adore!" -- Yoav
That's righ
Here's the deal, you answer each question with the sloganizer here
1. What do you say to yourself every morning?
Does the hard Daisuke for you.
(O,O!)
2. What do you want other people to say about you?
I'd walk a mile for a Daisuke.
(PFT! WALK FURTHER!)
3. Someone asked you out, your answer is...
Let the Daisuke begin.
(Yus, let it. :3)
4. How would you answer a booty call?
Daisuke comes to those who wait.
(Yeeeah! That's tellin' them.)
5. How would you introduce yourself to someone you really like?
There's first love, and there's Daisuke love.
(that's right, I'm priceless. *wink*)
6. To someone you dislike?
Have you forgotte